Dear friends,

I just realize that hi5 is quite an expand network where people get closer to each other. I had one, but I forgot to use it. I thought I use my hotmail account to create it but they said it was not. I cannot login to that account anymore. I do not know who is running my old hi5 at the moment. Very curious.

At least I know that I have friends there. :-) I hope you still want to be my friends on my new hi5. This time I will make it work to keep in touch with my friends around the world. So, if you have hi5, add me!

Stay in touch ;-)

Warisa (Yui)

I think about two sentences that my coordinator said to me when I was an aupair, "You are here to be an aupair". And "I cannot let you use us".

May be she was right. Because I really thought of being an aupair as something I can do which will bring me to USA to find the answers for my questions. I thought too much about love and being a couple with a guy in my dream. I did not really concentrate on working as an aupair. I did not really do everything to survive as an aupair. My heart was so weak and I was shocked. I gave up too soon.

I said that because I miss America so much. I do not know why do I miss it. May be because I feel like I threw up an opportunity to gain experiences aboard away with a few words. I realize that I am really naive and innocence to fight with the others. And that make be become a victim in the face of a predator.

Right now, I cannot turn back time to change anything. Or if I can change, I am unsure if I want to change because I feel warm at heart here when I am in Thailand with my mother and my good friends both inside and outside AIESEC.

I learn one thing important is that I have to be carefully think before I make a decision. Because I cannot change my decision backward all the time once had done. Life is good or bad is at the point of the viewer.

At least I have grown up and become a woman who really concentrate my life on work and study right now. And I am happier to be me again after many years in dream and lost.

Wish me a luck.
Yui

Dear all,

This is a good way to contact with everyone as I miss all of you so much since I came to Chicago. My life here was difficult in the first month as I have to adjust myself with rules and instructions of the host family and the ways to take care of their kids. But everything is quite better now.

I have learnt many lessons of living with strangers and working strictly with instructions, which quite new for me. Here, I do not have to create anything but I have to follow. At first, I do not like it because I always believe in myself and do whatever I think good. I like to be a leader and find my own ways. But it is not that good to have too much confident. In fact, I learn to be a good follower here. And I realize that I cannot be a good leader if I cannot be a good follower.

In real life, I cannot lead or follow all the time. There is time I have lead and follow.

Chicago is a very beautiful city. I like the plan of this city, brown tone color, architectures and constructions. There are so many museums where I had visited and also beautiful parks. People here are nice like Thai people. They always smile and say hi to each other. Most of all, transportation here is very convenient as I can go everywhere by trains.

The kids I am taking care of are 5 and 3 years old. They are so cute and clever. Even the older one does not always listen to me, as he is so confident and always want things to be his ways, rather spoiled, I would say. I am trying to teach him not to be like that because it would not good for him in long term. The younger one is shy and quiet. He has a lot of patient to wait for something without whining or crying.

My daily routine start very early from 6.30 AM in the morning on Monday to Friday to 4.30 PM or 6.30 PM. and sometime I have to work in the weekend too, but I have free time during the kids go to school on Monday and Tuesday from 9.00 AM to 2.00 PM. and on the weekend.

In the morning I have to prepare breakfast and snack for the kids then take them to school by bus. Then I have to come back home on Wednesday to Friday to take care of the younger boy. I have to make him do his pre-school books and play with him. Prepare him snack, lunch and feed him. Take care of him during his nap time. Then go pick up the older boy at school and give them shower when we come back home. I spend my days full of activities.

During weekend, I always go to see movie at AMC movie theater. The movie theaters here is not as good as movie theaters in Thailand and cost more, approximately 10 US$ for normal price.

There are always aupair gathering every two weeks in average. I met many new friends from Germany, France, Finland, Ukrain and Estonia. Sometime I go out with my aupair friends in the evening or on weekend. It is so good.

Well, this is the first time I really write about my aupair life in public. I hope you enjoy reading my story. I hope to hear from all of you again soon.

I miss Thailand, my family and my friends there so much.

Warisa :-)